Depression and/or anxiety at onset of a new season

I wanted to open this discussion as I have often felt restless, anxious (or even worse) at the change/ beginning of seasons. Many of you talk about distressing symptoms throughout the darkness of winter, but once into winter, I manage okay. I love the changing seasons, the altering qualities of light - little hints of change in nature etc.

Often during my life, the worst times in the annual calendar were mid to late June. Everyone around me would be shopping and planning for their summers - and I'd wander into some park after nights of poor or no sleeping and feel like ending it all. So conversion to summer with its long days could often be my worst SAD trigger.

If this turns out to be a fruitful discussion thread, it could be a huge help to me as the year unwinds. I have a lot of time available to me at the moment - ideal for some life repair work !