paranoid

Hi Caz!

I wish I knew because I appear to have it real bad at the moment! It's driving me mad!

I suppose a cure would be to move to the sunshine :D

hi

i know what you mean, i keep thinking is this me, or is a side affect of sad. But then I think to my self, "i never used to be paranoid before I had sad" Im very depressed at the mo, and being paranoid does not help. Im paranoid about my friends, "do they really like me ". my husband "does he really love me" my children "have i been a good mum ". But im having trouble with my 8 yr old son at the mo, so that dont help me. That makes me feel like i have failed as a mum. Im gonna have a bath, just want my own company to think on things, and this is the only way i can get away from every one. I have a lot of anger inside me from somewhere, and dont know where. :cry:
caz1 x

Anger, anxiety, stress, people feeling down, all these side affects seem to go hand in hand with SAD in the winter.
Spring can not come quick enough it seems to me.
I'm trying to go for plenty of walks outside but I don't know how much light you get if its snowing etc.

Oh my gosh!! Thanks for posting about this. I have been dealing with major paranoia lately! There is a serious situation going on in my life with my mother in law, and last week I guess she came here from Maine while I was out at the store with my son - ironically it was while I was picking up my copy of Dr Rosenthal's book. I only found out because there were pictures of her on the digital camera with the date on them. My husband didn't say anything to me - I think he's just trying to keep the peace. Now I'm questioning everything he's doing. He went into work early on Friday, and since then every time he does something out of the ordinary I'm going nuts thinking that he's lying to me because he wants to visit her while she's here. Oh, it's so good to know that I'm not the only one dealing with this. Three more weeks til Spring - I hope. :)

Hi guys,

I too was wondering if being paronoid was the real me and then I thought to myself, of course it isn't! It my Sad!! I cannot wait till I start to feel my normal self once again, I have forgotten who I am......sound familiar??? :lol:

Hi, all,
Yes, now you mention it.
I'v doubted that my husband realy loves me (he's still here), doubted I'm a good mum (kids don't seem to be to bad) Doubted decisions etc, etc. I can convince myself that I don't need my Med's which I have done recently,I haven't taken my anti-d's for about 2 weeks. needless to say the world is a very awful place at the moment,my cravings are thru the roof and I hate everybody and everybody hates me.
AAAAAHHHHHH!!!
Cazjenson

hi donna,

Yep I hate my self aswell, and as you say about your self Im proberly the only one who does hate me, well I hope so anyway.
To be honest I dont where I would be right now if it wasnt for this site. I feel there is no one to talk to, esp about being paranoid as I feel stupid. My friends do know about the SAD but thats it. I am gonna try and talk to my friend in the morning and tell her Im paranoid, Im hoping to get support, I think I will get it as she is so kind. She is going to help me find differant foods in tescos in the morning, alternatives to potatoes and pasta, she dont know why I want the differant foods yet. I hope Im right in saying that pasta and potatoes are bad, if you eat to much of them, as I do.
caz1 x

hi,

WOW THE SUN IS OUT.
I have been out shopping to tescos and got lentils, cous cous and bulger wheat, all alternatives to my potatoes and pasta, that I eat all the time. Plus I got some fish oils. When I got home I felt good, 1= for buying the good food I got, 2 =because the sun is out and 3 =because I spoke to my friend. I have done a major spout of house work and clearing up. I am happy and feel on top of the world today, what a diferance from the past week. I have doors and windows open, I feel like its summer. I am drinking more water as well now.

caz1 x

Hi there,

Paranoia was getting the better of me this year until I joined here and was able to read all your bits. Paranoia sucks, it's the worst bit for me and I fight pretty much every day to squash it. I go round in vicious cycles of being paranoid about something (i.e. my mates only hang round with me cause they've got nothing else better to do...what?!?), then realising how stupid that sounds and then feeling bad for acting like a pansy, which makes it worse and makes me start thinking worse things. Not fun.
The thing I hate is knowing that I'm being unreasonable and silly, but not being able to do a thing about it. The thoughts just keep coming.
I had a lot of inner demons concerning my missus this year, but when I confronted her about it, she was fine.

Consider this next time you're feeling paranoid:
I'm a very proud man and there are not many people I have told about this thing. I feel it's very private and I honestly feel less of a man for being as weak as a kitten for 5months of the year. However, I've plucked up the courage and decided that the best course of action on a couple of occasions is to tell my closest mates and explain why I'm being the Mr. Hyde and that "don't worry, good old me will be back soon!".

And do you know the response? "I didn't realise anything was wrong". So all those thoughts I was having about losing all my friends and having to spend my days in a cave surrounded by cats cause I'm an idiot and nobody loves, and in the end no-one's (bar the people I live with) actually noticed anything was different.

Just a thought x (a good one!)

LOL OBE, well you have no idea the things we've been saying about YOU... :lol:

Paranoia is awful for me too. I have talked to my friends this year though and to be honest not sure if it helps or not. They do reassure me, but then I convince myself they're only doing do because they feel they should and that they must really think I'm going mad. So I can't really win!

I try hard not to think about it too much. I know I'll realise in a few months I was being daft.

Thanks for everyone admitting how they feel as I have trouble wondering why people want to bother helping or talking to me as I can be quite depressing sometimes and I feel like I'm going mad. I'm having a bit of a bad time just lately, I'm going to a funeral tomorrow. My husbands business partner and friend from school days died in a tragic mountain climbing accident whilst on holiday. My husband needs my support and I've found this situation hard as I knew his friend quite well too and feel guilty that I haven't been stronger for him. Sorry to depress everyone, I did manage to be positive in the positive thread.

I completely agree as well. I never thought of it as much as paranoia, but more of a lack of self esteem. When I get depressed I just get really down on myself.

I have a difficult time going to social events because I feel like I don't belong in the room and I immediately get the desire to flee. I have to force myself to stay calm, smile and act normal. I think I do a damn good job of faking it because most people don't even realize I have SAD or that anything is wrong.

Where SAD is causing me damage though is at work. Office politics can be brutal to even the toughest-skinned folks, so needless to say I'm a wreck. I'm positive my supervisor hates me and I feel uncomfortable every moment I'm here. I want to quit, but I can't just now. Thank god I can come to this site when I'm having a particularly bad one here.

Remember just because you're all paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get you!